Changing Fuel


A couple of months ago I was struggling with all the change that was going on in my life.  I felt that rather than improving it was getting worse.

I found myself getting angry that all the spiritual work I was doing was meant to make life easier.  You know the story get closer to spirit and life turns into this easy nice flow, where change is seamless and is all positive.  Looking back on these feelings easy to laugh at myself but at the time it felt very intense.  I have also seen others go through this.

In the middle of one of my angry rants at life a thought occurred to me. I was trying to run my life on the wrong type of fuel.  Spiritual fuel is different to the fuel I had been using.  The spiritual work was increasing my energy levels but I was still trying to drive my life based on the old methods that i was used to. I was trying to push harder and harder to make things happen, hence my frustration that nothing was working.  The picture threw up a big issue, how to run my life on this new fuel. For me a big part was / is learning to let go and trust that things will work out. This was a very alien concept and one which I still struggle with. Letting go of what i cannot control does reduce stress levels.

I have had to work on changing my perspective of success, which over time has become easier. Viewing life through a more spiritual prism, for me, means focussing on my personal growth. It has helped me review my relationship with things and people to see where I am taking from the relationship rather than giving.

I wish I could say that life is now a complete joy with no issues. I have grown in the understanding that this is a life long “journey” and whilst i wish it could all be done at once, that’s not life. So using a new fuel is possible and enables growth but it’s very different and doesn’t generate old fuel results.

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